Friday Confessional

I am linking up with Aubrey for her Friday Confessional.  

I confess...

This is my first Friday Confessional but, I am hoping that it won't be my last :) 

I confess...

I have been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster this week.  I am blaming it on lack of sleep.  Not to give too many details (because it will make me crazy) but this one is a little funny.  Apparently on Tuesday afternoon, I was so mad at Pink and not the singer the color.  WTF right.  I do not like the color at all but Tuesday I hated the color with such a passion it was ridiculous. 

I confess...

I am so excited about this weekend, Ikea on Saturday and Cookout party at my house on Sunday, then Monday I am off and so is Allen so we will have a chill day :) 

I confess...

I am not motivated at all to work today.  I am the only one in the office today and I have been watching hulu instead of working.  But I have had all my work done so I guess it is ok. 

I hope you all have a FANTASTIC holiday weekend!!!!

Transformation Thursday!

Well it is that time again!!!  Friday I went to have bloodwork done at my doctor's office.  My blood pressure was a little high but it wasn't too bad 126/86 so that was one worry down.  I hate needles but I did ok with having my blood drawn.  Luckily the nurse that does it went to church with me for years so we got to catch up and made me not so nervous.  Funny thing though, when I was filling out the questionnaire for the doctor and it got to the part about how much alcohol you drink a week I was having a hard time putting something down.  So I lied...I said 3-4 glasses of wine a week when who and I kidding 4 glasses is a bottle and I can handle that like a champ.  Especially if I am with my bestie, Danielle.  I get my blood results back in my month follow up unless they find something alarming or wrong with my thyroid.  I haven't gotten a call yet so fingers crossed everything is ok! 

Ok enough rambling. 

Weighing in at 245 today :)

Stat Time

Pounds Lost - 1 pound from last week :) I at first was a little disappointed then I thought that is still a pound down :) and since I started 3 weeks ago I have made some huge moves.  

Emotion - Still happy and now even more motivated.  

Favorite Meal - This week I will have to say it is my Kashi Autumn Wheat cereal and strawberries with fat free milk.  I have it every morning and love it!

Water Count - I am probably averaging 224 ounces a day.  And I can tell I am drinking more water because I feel like going to the bathroom constantly. 

Workout - Well I did actually start walking this week.  I have been taking Pepper for a short walk in the morning and at night.  I also walked with Danielle yesterday at the track near her house.  We got a good mile in before this crazy storm.

I hope everyone has a happy Thursday!  :) 

Hugs, Kisses and Glitter :)

Wino Wednesay!!!!!

I am linking up Danielle and Aubrey.  I am so happy it is Wine Wednesday and I get to spend it with my bestie!!! I am looking forward to it.  Wine, chicken pasta and a fabulous friend...be jealous be very jealous. 

On to my post :) Saturday I am going to what I like to think of as HEAVEN on Earth.  I am going to IKEA.  I absolutely love this store and if you ever go to my apartment you know that I am not lying.  A lot of what I have is from Ikea.  You cannot beat the prices and everything is so pretty :) 

I don't really need anything this time but I went online to plan my list. 

 

Aren't they pretty!! I am getting all of them too I am so excited and they are plastic which is perfect for outside parties!! Each set is $3.99 you can't beat that.  Sadly I own almost everything else kitchen wise that you can so I am not getting much else. But I am excited for this purchase.

I am planning to have a cookout Sunday for Memorial day and these will be perfect :)  I am also finally going to get to use my outdoor party sticks that I got for free from hosting a Pampered Chef Party :) 

They are awesome right!! I am going to try my hardest to remember to take pictures of everything :)

Now all I need are so Summery Wine Charms (hint hint Danielle) :) 

I hope everyone has a wonderful Wine Wednesday :)

To Tan or Not to Tan!

That is my question for ya'll today!!  I have been going to the tanning bed for almost a month and I went from almost shiny white to a little color.  My tanning bed is running a special for 3 months for $100 (including tax) which isn't bad at all but should I do it. A normal month costs $45.

I do find it a little relaxing. 

I know that tanning beds aren't the best for you but honestly I have no time to get out in the sun during the week and every weekend it has either been cold or rainy.  And we all do things that aren't good for us all the time. I have done the spray tans and they just don't last for the money you spend.  Any self tanners that are good? What would you do?

Transformation Thursday!

It is that time again!!!!  Well I had a very interesting weekend.  As much as I lost on the military diet I put it all back on the 4 days off.  So I have decided to just make good eating decisions and not do such a strict diet plan because I over did it.  So after eating clean and healthy, I am back at 246 yay! I realized that I can't just use the Military diet and lose weight just to put it right back on.  I am going to stick with something that is going to be more long term.  I love food and I don't want to deprive myself completely of what I like but I am also not going to gorge myself in those foods either.  And WATER WATER WATER!!!!!  I am pushing water like crazy and I feel so much better.  Tomorrow I go to the doctor to have my blood work done and talk to my doctor about a right nutrition plan.  I know my blood work is going to probably be bad but it is a starting point right.

Stat Time:

Pounds Lost - +.5 (which I am not happy about the gain but at least it is down from Monday)

Emotion - Still Happy but a little nervous about tomorrow's doctor appointment.  Good vibes and prayers are welcomed at 8:30 tomorrow.

Favorite Meal - My Fresh Market Salad from last night.  I meant to take a picture but it was so good.  Grilled Chicken, on a bed of spinach with mushrooms, chick peas, carrots, 

cucumbers, cheddar cheese and egg.  With Balsamic dressing it was so good!!!  

Water Count - I did awful with my water this weekend but I have been averaging about 168 ounces daily since Monday.  

Work Out - Still didn't get to the gym this week.  Going to try hard next week.  But Allen and I are going hiking Friday when he gets off work so that will be good :) 

Like I said in my first Transformation Thursday post, I am going to post the good, bad and ugly.  I am human and going to slide a little at times.  I hate it happened so early but I am learning from each week.  I am hoping that next week I have lost pounds to share with yall ;) 

 

Being Your Best Self!

I have never been a petite small little girl like my momma.  I unfortunately got my daddy's build.  Big, broad shoulders, muscular legs and big calves.  But over the years I have gained and lost and gained more and lost less.

I am the one on the left.  This was me most of my life.  Probably 155lbs

 I still thought I was huge even then but what I would kill to look like that now.  This is me about 3 years ago at one of my biggest probably rounding in around 265+.  The sad thing is I thought I actually looked good until I saw the pictures of myself.  

 

I have drastically changed in the past years.  And in my defense, I had some major/tragic events happen in my life that made me so sad and hate myself so much.  Food was my friend and food made me happy.  Food never told me I was ugly, stupid or not good enough.  Food (for a small time) made me feel full and safe.  What I was doing was slowly killing myself which at this point in life I really didn't care.  But I was TIRED DONE being a victim!!!!  I also finally have absolutely wonderful angels that are some of the best friends you could ever ask for and I thank God every day for Danielle, Smash and Megan! And for Vickie who always lets me know how to make me feel better every day at work!! She is a wonderful woman and she will be my photographer throughout this process :)  They have shown me how friends are suppose to support and love you.  I never have to act like I am something I am not with them.  And I finally found a man that loves and respects me for me.  He acts treats me like a person not like a possession or just someone that is suppose to be seen but not heard.  And he asked me to marry him and I couldn't be happier about that either :)  I also have finally decided to stop blaming my mother for hating me.  She doesn't hate me she just knows that deep down I am not happy with how I am.  Which I am not but I have tired to put on a happy face but it is time for a major change. 

First picture Allen and I ever had together about 4 years ago I think at Easter.   

Ok, now do not get me wrong, I am no longer that sad girl with cheese fries as her best friend anymore.  I am so much happier but I still have to deal with the battle of losing the weight.  SO, what I have decided to do is tracking my weight loss (probably some weeks gain) every Thursday.  I am going to call it Transformation Thursday.  I will weigh in every Thursday report my weight and what I have done that week and my feeling about the week as well.  I am not going to make this sappy and sad but I want to try to uplift anyone else that is going through this same.  I am also going to keep everything happy and fun because this is an exciting time :) So here we go!

This was last Friday night when our group went to a dueling pianos dinner.  I was about 252 there. My arms are out of control but that scarf is amazaballs!!!!

Ok so this week I have been doing the Military Diet that Danielle's, wonderful finance, Jason told me about. The Military Diet look it up if you are interested.  I have seen some amazing results.  And you get to have ice cream every night!!  I should have taken a picture of my breakfast because it was wonderful.  A slice of cheddar cheese (favorite), 5 saltine crackers and an apple.  Perfection!!!

This is me this morning.  I weighed in at 245.5 this morning and I still have one more day to go.  I am very impressed with this diet and happy to already see some results. 

Stat Time:

Pounds lost - 6.5

Emotion - Happy and Super excited

Favorite Meal - As I said before, cheddar, apple and crackers for breakfast

Water Count - averaging about 168 ounces daily

Work Out - Not this week sadly gotta start back next week. 

Absolutely love this saying!!!!

I am looking forward to a healthier and continued happy Jennifer.  I hope that you enjoy this post (even though a little wordy) and please feel free to let me know how your transformations are going if you are in the process with me.

Wine Wednesday

I am linking up with Aubrey and Danielle for Wino Wednesday.

This past weekend I got went to Victoria Valley Vineyards for the blogger meet-up.  I was very excited to go but also a little hungover...I have a little too much fun the night before at Duel Pianos.  But anywho, had a wonderful time.  It was wonderful to finally meet Aubrey and she is absolutely fabulous.  Even though we had a small group it was lovely.  The place was gorgeous and I would love to go back and take the vineyard tour.  It was raining like crazy so we didn't get to do that.  But it was so much fun.  I really enjoyed myself very much...maybe a little too much there because I ended up spending almost $90 (in my defense...I bought 2 bottles of wine and a set of coasters and we had lunch, dessert and wine) but it was such a great time with some wonderful women.  

Again, I am a bad blogger so I didn't take pictures but I am going to do better. 

I hope everyone enjoys your Wednesday.

I have been a very bad blogger!

 

I have been such a bad blogger lately!!! But I will do better I promise :)